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Unknown_01:
Here's somebody asked me if I was okay, so here's what happened I Asked my grandmother Okay, first I said hey Graham Happy birthday is it's her birthday
Unknown_01: I hope everything's going okay and you're having a great Christmas I'm sorry I couldn't be there but I'm in Vegas I was wondering if you could help me out with something because I have extreme medical
Unknown_01: costs coming up and i have nowhere else to turn my blood work costs one thousand nine hundred dollars and i don't make that much money maybe you could help me and she said you should be more like your mother the mother that disowned you when you were 15
0:01:23
Unknown_01:
You should be more like her and pull yourself up by the bootstrap.
Unknown_01: And work harder for your money. And I said.
Unknown_01: I'm sorry. I was just asking for help.
Unknown_01: You could just say no.
Unknown_01: That would have been fine.
Unknown_01: But then she continued.
Unknown_01: She said that nothing that I have gone through matters.
0:02:05
Unknown_01:
Me being homeless.
Unknown_01: Me doing porn to survive. Me living in a drug den. None of that really mattered. I should have just tried harder in life.
Unknown_01: Like her. Like my mom.
Unknown_01: And so I said, well, I hope you have a Merry Christmas.
Unknown_01: I'm not going to talk to you again.
0:02:40
Unknown_01:
And she said, it's like you took a knife and shoved it into my heart.
Unknown_01: Why are you making me feel bad? This is all your fault.
Unknown_01: And I stopped talking to her.
Unknown_01: And I told my mom what she said. And my mom said. She's getting old. She's angry. She's near death. And she's taking it out on people near her. And I told her I can't forgive her for anything she said. Because.
0:03:18
Unknown_01:
She hit me in the spot that hurt the most.
Unknown_01: And so she can.
Unknown_01: She can die regretting everything that she's ever said to me. Now I have to find ways to make money so that I can live. My mom helped me a little. My brother helped me a little. My sister helped me a little.
0:03:52
Unknown_01:
My grandmother flipped me off and said, fuck you, work harder in life.
Unknown_01: my grandmother was the person that raised me the most i learned the most from anyone from my grandmother now she just is dead to me so that's how my christmas is going
0:04:32
Unknown_01:
My family is in tatters.
Unknown_01: I have no money.
Unknown_01: And apparently I don't work hard enough despite having gone from being homeless to living in a mansion. I don't work hard enough.
0:05:08
Unknown_01:
Thank you so much Joe Petty for the sub dude. Thank you so much. I really appreciate it. Well, so much it means a lot.
0:05:48
Unknown_01:
Sorry that you guys had to come in at this time. It's just, this reminds me of the time in my life when my grandmother, or when my mom just sent me a text message saying she wanted nothing to do with me when I was 15 and it's engraved in my memory forever. And that's all I can think about. And it's the same feeling now. My grandmother telling me that I'm not working hard enough and that I'm just useless. I haven't done shit with my life. I even apologized to my mom today for growing up to be who I am.
0:07:38
Unknown_01:
I don't have a family.
Unknown_01: My family's been dead to me for years.
Unknown_01: The second I moved out of Maine at 18, I said, fuck you to my family.
0:08:12
Unknown_01:
Yeah, my grandmother's not the same person that she was. She's an evil fucking bitch now. And it tears my fucking heart apart.
Unknown_01: Thank you for everyone that's donated and for everything.
Unknown_01: I just want a happy Christmas with my boyfriend and Richard.